Today i have felt so DEAD. I dont know why, but it cant be good. I get plenty of sleep, but not too much, so its not that. I am a horrible eater, and dont excersise, yea thats probably it. ick. I was thinking about taking vitamins and stop smoking.HA i doubt that.

I heard today from Karla, a coworker of mine, that there was two families in Colorado that won a free vacation to stay in a big house & all that cool shit. so one family stayed there, and when the next family had there turn to stay in the house, they found the other family dead. HOW FRICKKIN DEPRESSING IS THAT? i bet they thought it was their lucky day. =// Yea so they died of carbon monoxide poisoning...peaceful at least.


I dont know, i get paranoid, always thinking im sick somehow.
iforgetwhatitscalled.

-Zor

Ya know Winter used to be my favorite season? Yeah, but now all it seems to me is desperate. Trying to stay warm among the frozen tundra i call "the bedroom", & i cant help but thing of the money were wasting on the space heater. Is my mind being controlled to spin around the thought and mention of MONEY?? i used to not care, but i guess this is the reality of moving out on your own for the first time. Oh God i dont want to get into that tonight...Any way, back on subject...Winter,, Its Bleak almost. It isnt comfortable and makes me feel like everything has changed all of a sudden. Switched up. I dont know, im stoned.

To make matters worse, my stepdad has Cancer. A name i cant pronounce, throat Cancer of some sort. Right before Christmas, great. I honestly dont know what will happen, but i guess everything happens for a reason. Even though i feel angry, i mean he IS my dad. My biological dad died when i was 7, and ive known Pete since i was like 2 (im not sure of the exact number). I dont know what else to say of it.

So take this Night, & lay me down on the street, i know im not forgivin, and i hope that ill be given some peace.



I can ride my bike without handlebars
-Zor